Can't sleep.

I've been in bed for about 4 hours now, and I just can't sleep. I'm not even that tired. I want to sleep, I need to sleep, but I just can't. I have a tute for "Foundations of Health" at 9am tomorrow, and I think I will struggle to remain awake though the whole thing.

I haven't posted for a while, which I'm sure doesn't matter because I'm about 99.99% sure that nobody reads this. Here is a thought. Why do you put a percentage sign after a number and a dollar sign before the number? Is there a reason why it is different?

I started my new course on Monday, and so far it is going quite well. I'm doing Health Science by the way, and in that four subjects. Human Structure and Function is basically Anatomy and Physiology (I don't know why they don't just call it that? University types, pff) is by far the hardest. I knew I would struggle with it though, and in a weird way that is kind of why I chose to do it. After doing arts last year and finding myself very unmotivated thoughout most of it, I thought it might be better to try something more challenging, something that would FORCE me to do some work and try harder to learn. I know that I can't just bullshit my way through this one, so hopefully I will actually do it and not fail the subject all together.

The other subjects I'm doing are called 'Foundations of Health', 'Health Sociology' and 'Introduction to Research in Health Science'. I thought that research one would be really boring but I had the seminar for it on Wednesday (yeah it doesn't have any lectures or tutes, just one 3-hour seminar per week? Odd) and it was really quite enjoyable. I've enjoyed all my subjects so far, and all my teachers have been nice. For the first time I have female university teachers, which is also something. Something else new is that I have managed to make some friends, I think. Well I've had people to talk to at least, which makes things more bearable. I find making friends difficult so I'm really happy on that front.

I think over the last year or so I have become a lot more socially withdrawn than I used to be. I find myself not really wanting to be around many people anymore, just the people closest to me. I don't really like going out partying etc anymore, I get really nervous, anxious and self conscious unless I am confident that I will know everyone there very well. I think that has a lot to do about my shocking social life at uni last year, it fell way short of my expectations and quite simply, people just weren't very nice.

I'm going to try and sleep again, Dad will be mad if I'm not ready to go when I said I would be (7:15! oh no). I think it's kind of funny that my Dad is taking me to uni. Well he's actually taking me to his work and I am getting the train to uni from there, because it is only about 3 or 4 stations away. But still, it is kind of funny and cute. I wonder if we will stop for muffins on the way like we did when I was at school.

Oh and by the way, I bought some really cool jeans the other day. They are soo comfortable and I thought they made my legs look a bit fat but now I don't think they do.

Goodnight, hopefully

The Baby Borrowers

I'm watching this show on the Lifestyle channel where they've got 4 roughly seventeen year old couples from around England and chucked them into a 'real adult' life, with their own house, a low paying job and soon they're going to get babies. Eventually they get toddlers, then kids, then teens etc. It's an interesting show, but for some reason I'm focused on...who would lend their children to this show? I mean for these idiot teenagers to look after?!

I started uni today, it went pretty well. The subject is hard but I really tried to understand everything and eventually I did, and it was really satisfying. We learnt about Homeostasis, the nervous system and the endocrine system. 

It's going to be really hot tomorrow, another high bushfire risk day. Even though we don't live in a bushfire prone area, it's still unnerving and I'm a bit tired of it all. Bring on winter, I say.

Academy Awards 2009

At the moment I'm sitting on the couch, still in my jammies, watching the red carpet part of the 2009 Academy Awards. I'm not even really interested in the awards themselves, but I do very much enjoy seeing all the gowns and jewels. So far I like Sarah Jessica Parker's dress the best, I guess I will post more later...and pictures if I can figure out how!

this week.

Well another week has gone by, and I have posted nothing again. It was a very quiet week.

I'm starting to get very nervous about uni, starting all over again (...again), and I have a feeling this new course is going to be a lot harder than the one I did last year. I'm going to have to put in a lot of work. I'm willing to do it though, it's not like I really have a social life to sacrifice anyway. 

I've had a good time with the boy this week. We went into the city together on Tuesday (I hardly ever go into the city, it's far away and I'm very lazy) to go shopping and have a nice lunch, then when we got home we went for a walk because the weather was so great. Then on Thursday after dinner I went to his house for a sleep over and we ended up taking his cousin from Tasmania out for a cocktail (passionfruit vodka martinis, my favourite) at Cookie. It was nice to lie in bed together with nothing to do this morning, before I had to make a mad dash to my orthodontist because the wire behind my teeth broke last night while I was eating a taco.

Been working a bit more this week, I've never been so grateful to work at Coles after last week. On Sunday I worked at the Good Vibrations festival at the bar, and it was one of the worst days of my entire life. I accepted the shift thinking it might be fun, the atmosphere would be good and I might get to see Fatboy Slim, right? WRONG. It was AWFUL! I didn't get to see any of the artists I wanted to see, my bar was situated next to some stage that had just clubbing-type music, and the thud of the repetitive base line all day really caused significant headaches all around. In the 10 hours that the festival went for, there were probably 8-10 DJ sets there and they all pretty much mixed exactly the same songs. Boring. Also I did an 11 hour shift and I was only given one half hour break! They are SLAVE DRIVERS, I tell you. The senior staff there are also quite racist, I might add, I really felt like I was treated a lot better than the rest of the staff by them, and I'm fairly sure it's because I was the only white person working at the bar. Most people that work for the company in question are international students from India and that general area. Anyway the way the supervisors treated everyone made me very uncomfortable and I will not be working there again.

this week

I haven't posted much later, which probably doesn't matter because I don't think anyone reads this, but anyway...

It has been a sad week for Victoria. Even though I have not been directly affected by the recent bush fires, I have found that the tragedy has really gotten to me. Every night since last Sunday I have had nightmares about fire, mainly ones where I have to flee my home. I've been paranoid about knowing exactly where all my most important possessions are just in case something happens. In reality, the affected areas are nowhere near where I live, but I've found myself worrying that the Dandenongs might go up, and although even in that case there would still be little threat to me, I think I would want to feel prepared and ready to go. On Friday morning and last night there were fires up there but they were put out quickly, it did force a lot of smoke into our area though. I don't know, I just can't stop thinking about it all.

On the upside, on Friday all the Coles stores in Australia pledged to donate all of their profits to the Bush Fire Appeal, and our sales for the day were about $326,000 (to give some perspective, on a normal Friday we would usually do around $150,000). I don't know what percentage of that is profit (my dad thinks approximately 5%), but even so it was really good thing of them to do. It was good, as a staff member, to see the public make the effort to change their plans to ensure their money went to a good cause. Even though it was insanely busy, I didn't feel bitter towards all the customers like I often do on days like that (i.e. Christmas Eve). For the record, I usually feel bitter because mainly when that happens it's right before a significant day or, God forbid, a day we are closed, and I feel like people could just be better organised and less annoying in general.

I don't really feel like writing today.

what a weekend.

As I said in my last post, Saturday was Victoria's hottest day on record, and there were massive bush fires all over the state. It is now confirmed that over 100 people have died as a result, and that figure is expected to at least double as more burnt out houses are inspected over the next few days and weeks. I am absolutely shocked and horrified at what has happened. Everyone is saying that is just happened so quickly, and you can see amazing footage of it on the news. So much damage and destruction in such a short time, it's devastating. I can't imagine what it must be like for the 700+ families that have lost their homes, to have everything you've worked so hard for just literally go up in smoke like that must be the worst feeling in the world. And the killer thing is, they are the lucky ones because unlike some, they are alive. 

Bush fires in Victoria are not uncommon but this is just incredible, I don't really know what to say, I am so shocked and amazed and the sheer devastation of it all. I am also very surprised that the Dandenong Ranges didn't have a major fire, as it has at least two or three times in my living memory. Lucky for us, because at the rate these fires were burning who knows what could have happened in our community. 

My sympathies to out to those affected. I feel like I want to help in some way but I don't really know what I can do so I will just donate money. I just really hope that the firefighters manage to control the remaining fires soon and no more destruction takes place.

What a weekend.

p.s.

Oh and I forgot to add, it was totally uncool that none of the customers laughed at my hilarious nuclear holocaust jokes today. I had three trolleys completely full of gourmet cheese and they were all "what's going on?" and I was sick of explaining that the fridges were off so I said "I'm just preparing for a nuclear holocaust, I really like cheese" (in an entirely joking tone) and they didn't really seem to find it funny at all. Losers, I am hilarious.